i might stop recording everything because this is fucking depressing…
but basically i had a POT of mac and cheese and purged it (obviously) I don’t know why but I couldn’t stop myself. I’m such a failure I hate it.
no, i didn’t do any exercise today and i feel like dying. the weight of everything… not just my physical weight, but all the secrets I have to keep, the people who are asking my help all the time, it’s crushing me and I don’t know how long I can take it. I usually don’t want to cut so much but I do. again. I can’t focus on my homework unless I slice at my arm. I hate this.
and this is more a personal entry than intake… but whatever.