May 11th

Things I ate and kept down:

Slushie: 264

Calories Burned: 436 

May 10th

Food I had today and kept down:

• 1 grapefruit-120 cals

December 22nd

Morning: Coffee-8 cals

Lunch: WTF I WAS JUST GOING TO HELP MY AUNT GET JAM WHY WAS LUNCH INVOLVED-80000000000 CALORIES!

Dinner: I refuse to eat. water water water.

I’m not going to reach my christmas goal :’(

December 21st

Breakfast/Lunch… I woke up at 12:30pm:

• 0.5 cup of coffee: 4 (thanks for not leaving enough coffee MOM)
• Cinnamon-Raisin bagel with butter: 223

Dinner:

• 2 crushed eggs with margarine: 154
• Sprite: 150

Total: 531

Weight: Down 2 pounds (yayayayayayay)

oh, and I did 20 sissy push ups.. (the ones where you do it on your knees)

December 19th

Diet Pills: 4

Weight: Same

Breakfast:

• Coffee: 8
• Bagel and Cream Cheese: 260

Lunch:

• Bread Sticks and Cheese: 141?
• Crystal light: 10

Dinner: Purged

• KD: 480
• Hot Dog: 204

“Dessert”

• Rice Crackers: 60

Total: 1163 (WHAT THE FUCK HOW IS THIS EVEN POSSIBLE?!)

i need to stop eating so much.

December 18th

Diet Pills: 6

Weight: Same

Morning:

• Coffee: 8

Lunch: 702

• Chinese food: 548
• Crystal Light: 10
• Sprite: 144

Dinner:

• Bagel and no-fat cream cheese: 238

Total: 946

December 17th

Diet Pills: 6

Weight: Down 1 pound

Holy shit I don’t even want to talk about today. I don’t want to add up my calories, because I’ll cry like a little bitch. Didn’t have ANY home prepared food today, so it was ALL takeout. I hate weekends because my mother is always making me eat. I purged dinner though, I couldn’t handle it.

On the plus side, I went shopping for my christmas presents, and I tried on jeans today and I’m officially a size down. (I didn’t buy them tho because they didn’t have them in dark colors and I hate light jeans on me) I hate my thighs because they make me have to wear pants 2 sizes bigger all the time… I have a lot of belts.

I’m soo scared to weigh myself tomorrow morning, but I have to. I have to slap myself in the face for all this shit.

I don’t know if I want to weigh myself over christmas… because fuckity fuck it’ll be like 3000 calories and +34235 pounds and I’ll be sad as al fuck.

December 16th

I always forget to do these…

Diet Pills: 4 (starting the new ones tomorrow :O )

Breakfast:

• Coffee: 8

Lunch:

• Random Grilled Chicken Wrap Fuckery: 380?
• Nestea Zero: 0

Dinner:

• 6 slices of cheese: 200ish i think
• Arizona: 250ish

Total: 736 (that’s what my calorie counter app added up)

NOT a great day… I hope I lost weight tho

December 14th

Diet Pills: 4

Breakfast:

• Coffee: 8 cals

Lunch:

•  4 crackers: 38 cals
• 1 piece of marble cheese: 80 cals

Snack:

• Tea: 2 cals
• 1 shred of shredded cheese: 10 cals? you can’t measure that small…

Dinner:

•  2 egg vegetable omelet with toast: 567

Total: 706